if there isn't a recovery group yet, i'll start one. my dad and i can be the first members.
is patience genetic?
i'm in this quiet season.
a season i have prayed for over and over again for years.
to not be busy.
to not have a schedule that's jam packed.
and it's finally here!
and i hate it.
i feel like i waste some days doing absolutely nothing.
which is exactly what i had prayed about.
anyone who doesn't think God answers prayers can speak to me.
because here i am. in this answered prayer. and i'm already praying a new one.
the Lord has a sense of humor, this i know.
He knew that the minute He'd answer that prayer of mine, i'd be begging for a new one.
correct He is.
and also...if i can be so honest, terrible at times.
this doesn't happen over night. it takes so much work and studying. some people, as nice as they may seem on their blogs just aren't willing to help other out. and that makes life hard.
and somedays. somedays i cry and think i'm doing something totally stupid and it's not what i'm called to do.
"that's a lie straight from satan and you can not believe it megan"
words spoken from the hubs this past weekend when i had one of my megan-meltdowns-about-photography.
one day. i'll write an honest post about how hard starting a photography business is.
once i make it.
i get that this is what i prayed for. i asked for this season of quiet. of no job. of being able to spend the day in my pjs because i have no where to go.
but my heart just isn't in it.
and that's where i'm stuck.
Jesus promises that He won't ever put us through anything that He can't get us out of. or that we can't handle.
so here i am. in this season i wanted, praying for a new one. all the while, He's smiling down reminding me that someday i'll understand.
i'll understand why i'm not booking clients right and left.
i'll understand why i'm feeling defeated.
i'm clinging right now to His promises.
the promise that there is something ahead for me that is greater than anything i can ever imagine.
the promise that He's with me right now. in this tough learning season. cheering me on.
the promise that i have to trust His ways.
i'm praying that right now, if there's anyone else in the season, we can chat. because i know i can't be alone. there's so much ahead.
i just have to learn to be patient with the Lord.
so here i go. off to enjoy the quiet.