i've realized that lately i keep praying, "let me live like You Lord", but i haven't been putting the effort into knowing what that entails, does that make sense?
the gospels. four books that will clearly tell us how we're supposed to act.
i came to the parable of the sower yesterday, and as i was reading, i realized...i'm the seed in the thorns.
let's back up.
Jesus is teaching by a lake (because that's just what He did...He taught), and in one of His parables.
to be honest, at some point, if i were a disciple, i'd ask the big guy to maybe just give a lesson with out the parable. no?
anyways, so He's teaching and gives the parable of the farmer, sowing his seeds.
i love that after Jesus gives this vague and almost confusing parable, He asks why the disciples don't understand. and almost sarcastically asks, "how will you understand any parable?!"
i can almost picture Him standing there laughing, like, "uh, hello, guys? don't you get it? seeds...four places they could be sown...the farmer? anyone?"
maybe He didn't say all that but He did clear things up a bit.
"the farmer sows the word. some people are like seed along the path, where the word is sown. as soon as they hear it, satan comes and takes away the word that was sown in them. others, like seed sown on rocky places, hear the word and at once receive it with joy. but since they have no root, they last only a short time. when trouble or persecution comes because of the word, they quickly fall away. still others, like seed sown among the thorns, hear the word; but the worries of this life, the deceitfulness of wealth and the desires for other things come in and choke the word, making it unfruitful. others, like seed sown on good soil, hear the word, accept it, and produce a crop"
mark 4:14-20 tniv
and then it got me thinking.
what seed am i?
the seed in the thorns.
i worry. it's just something that happens. and about everything.
all the promises that are in the Word of God about how i'm not supposed to worry, get choked by my worries.
not a pretty sight is it?
my seeds need to be in that good soil. all of them.
i think that 90% of my seeds are hanging out in the good soil, producing a beautiful crop that God is so proud of...but i'm missing some.
i'm missing the seeds that say, "ok God this life of mine is totally Yours. nothing left of it is mine. do what you want with it."
because i'm a human and as much as i try, it's hard to give it all to God.
but that's what i'm doing.my prayers have been, "let me be in the good soil God, producing your crop".
because that's what we're supposed to be doing.
that crop is His work in our lives.
we're supposed to produce love, peace, patience. joyfulness, kindness, faithfulness, gentleness...the things that Jesus produced on a daily basis.
the things that God created us to do.
i'm the seed that's getting out of the thorns. i'm realizing that all my worrying gets me no where and it's really no good. i'm realizing that God has already made these plans for me, and that He answers my prayers when i call them out to Him, and really does give me the desires of my heart.
this passage of scripture made me take a personal inventory of where my heart is.
i figured out what seed i am, and am getting out of the thorns.
what seed are you?
maybe you're already in the good soil, praise God. or maybe you're like me and just need to do a little bit of spring cleaning to get up and into the good soil.
all my love,