a revelation.

i am by definition a worrier.
it's something God is seriously trying to work on with me, and i'm a really slow learner.

i think,
i think though, that i'm starting to gain some progress.

here's the deal.
i'm impatient. always have been. my mother can back this claim up for sure.
i want things now, not later. i never see the point in having to wait for something.

the other day i started reading ephesians again {my most favorite book in the bible} and just in the first chapter God spoke to me.

"i keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, 

the glorious Father, 

may give you the Spirit of 

wisdom and revelation 

so that you may know Him better."

ephesians 1:17

rev-e-la-tion:
a. an act of revealing or communicating divine truth
b. something that is revealed by God to humans

and so it came to me.

i'm so busy praying about God doing a work in my future, that i'm forgetting about the here and now. sure it's fun to plan things out, the ocd organizer in me is all about planning, but then we forget about what we're supposed to be doing right now.

i've been focusing on the future and forgetting about the present.

which is far more important, don't you think?

i stopped and almost cried. what if i had missed some huge opportunity from the Lord, because i was still praying about my future career?

God clearly spoke to me that very day about my future, and put me at ease.
isn't it lovely when He does that?

but it made me realize, if i'm not doing His work right now, then where's the hope for my future?
if i'm not making the most of the job i have right now, then why would He give me a bigger opportunity?

right now. i serve tables. i loose my patience, get grumpy at old people, spill hot soup on me, complain about bad tips, and hate the fact that my hair is always in a pony tail.

i realized the other day, that until i turn all those from negative things to positive things, i don't think He's going to take me out of mimi's.

it's a learning process. 

i've got to realize {daily} that patience really is a virtue, that some people are just unhappy and i need to make them smile, that at least i'm getting a tip, and maybe i should just chop my hair off so i don't have to put it up every day.

and lets be honest, i've got nothing for the hot soup one. 

do you see where i'm going with this?

our current circumstances are making a way for our future.
He's got me right where He wants me.
serving tables.
because it will prepare me for what He has next for me.

i'm thankful for this little revelation of mine because it's made a tiny difference in me. yes, tiny, because i'm just getting going.
i'm not perfect.

if you're like me and always wondering when you'll get that big break.
be patient.

it's coming.

happy monday!

all my love,
meg