He's right there but you just haven't...had the time to answer.
cause if i can be so honest, that's where i'm at right now. He's there, just waiting for me, but i keep telling Him i'm too busy.
or worse, i don't even answer.
i've been reading having a mary heart in a martha world for a good month now and i'm not even half way through...i just haven't taken the time to read it.
it's about when Jesus visits mary and martha, but martha is super busy running around making sure everything is perfect because Jesus is there.
which is what every woman i know would be doing.
the Messiah is over for dinner. are the good dishes out? have i over cooked the meat? are the napkins folded nicely? did i light that candle to make the room smell nice?
"the living room intimacy mary enjoyed with Jesus will never come out of the busyness of marthas kitchen. busyness, by itself, breeds distraction. luke 10:38 shows us a woman with the gift of hospitality. martha opened her home to Jesus, but that doesn't automatically mean she opened her heart. in her eagerness to serve Jesus, she almost missed the opportunity to know Jesus. luke tells us that "martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made." key word: had. in marthas mind, nothing less than the best would do. she had to go all out for Jesus"
almost missed the opportunity.
i've been almost missing the opportunity a lot lately.
He's been at my house and i've been running around worried about getting school work done, or to meet this friend, or to call that person back.
lucky for me. grace comes into play here.
even though i've been terrible at being a Child of His, He forgives me and is still waiting here for me.
grace is a beautiful things.
i think it's that feeling you get when you're just surrounded by Him.
so i'm meeting Him today. blaring the worship musics, asking for forgivness for being so distant, and deciding that i'm not too busy for Him.
i want that mary heart. the heart that drops everything to be with her Savior. the heart that knows nothing is as important than Him.
i mean, i know i know that...but do i put it into practice.
and let me not leave out the little 'ugh' feeling i've had lately. you know, that missing feeling. the feeling that your heart is just screaming out: HEY IT'S JESUS THAT YOU NEED.
yea that feeling.
i'm relishing in the promise that God won't ever leave me.
no matter how far i go from Him.
no matter how long my list of to-dos gets.
God has made the way for us to spend time with Him, the ball is in our court.